After
I resigned I have been through a range of emotions. It really has unsettled my
train trips. I've found I can't concentrate on anything for long. So I read for
a while, listen to music for a while, send a few disjointed emails. Shock--is
that an emotion or a state of being?--played a big part in my first week;
immense relief; fear of an unknown future: anger that I should have felt forced
to leave. These emotional states have cycled through me at a rapid rate. Right now I feel
empowered. I just had a heart to heart with my boss. It went really well. I
won't say we are now bosom buddies, but I can now leave knowing I don't hold
any animosity toward him. I am relieved by that, it would have lingered with me
for a very long time. There are always two sides to every story. Each person
has an entirely different perspective, with some validity. Today, for the first
time, I was able to get my boss to appreciate my perspective. Too late for him
as I have made the decision to leave, there is no turning back. I hope my boss
can learn something from this experience. I've given him the opportunity
anyway. Somewhere along the line communications broke down between us. Part of
it was some issues of mine; a lot of it was him. I've always felt like didn’t
fit in this role. There is no guarantee the next job will be better, I'll do my
best to ensure that it doesn't occur a second time. The job market looks good
today, there were quite a few positions that looked worthy of my interest.
The
music I listened to today was from a collection of songs put together in July for a
group of friends. I was proud of the final result. I did get some extremely
valuable help from my partner. At the time I lacked the confidence to
complete it on my own.
Here
is one of the songs from the collection I listened to this morning.
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